Friday, September 01, 2006
do u think that moe is stressing us too much? this holiday lasts only a week, and yet it doesn't feel like a holiday. its just, homework week!. yaay! like we're supposed to go all excited about it.
2 projects to be finished. hmm. then where does all my homework time go? hmm. homework time... how about my studying time? well.. there isn't any studying time because there isn't time for them anyway. so we might as well fail all our tests!
we dont' want to fail our tests! so how? we slog through our lives by studying, doing homework and doing projects.. so in the end, we can't enjoy our youth. and we turn out depressed adults who's gonna ruin the future of the world.
hmm. i really see no reason why we should be forced out of all our youth to just study study study study. i mean, not everybody has the interest in studying. we can't just sit down for the whole day and stare at books.
we want to enjoy life too. we study hard in school. after we graduate, we work hard. after we retire, we wonder.. i spend my whole life working and studying.. i really didn't get the chance to enjoy myself.. now i'm old.. i can't do much. i REGRET.
mrs verma was real nice this time. she didnt' give us homework for the 'holiday'. she knew our 'holiday' would be filled with projects and homework. for once, i felt touched by her.
teachers' day celebration was BORING. omg.. super boring. didn't get to see the president. didn't get to walk around the school bcos they forbidded us and we had to be confined in a classroom. what's the point of going to school anyway.
band practices are starting to scare me. i'm more of scared than happy to go for band practices. i wonder why. mayb i'm lacking confidence.
i almost had a mental breakdown on wednesday. hmm. stressed up. during liuliu's class, i wanted to just stand up, and cry. and yell at everybody and then jump off the building. hmm. in the end, i just said to myself.. 'don't worry. its gonna be all over and im going to go home and have fun.'
i wanted to tell my mom how horrible i felt, but my aunt and cousins were there.. had to keep shut. i didn't want them to worry or think i was mad.
i wanted to tell my mother, i dont want to go to school. tell her to write a letter or something. say 'dear ???, i'm sorry but my daughter can't make it to school bcos she's going mad.'
hmm. that'll be cool, but she was asleep. didn't want to wake her up. so yeah.. and i was having my menses on that day. it was heavy flow. hmm. unstable moods.
today, we had a mango as fruits for us. i took the first slice. it was sour.
my dajie took the next slice. it was sour. (we all showed sour faces)
my erjie took the next slice. it was sour. (sour face)
my meimei took the next slice. it was sour (sour face).
my mom took the next slice. she took a bite and said 'it isn't sour' and she gives a sour face. hmm. then she took another bite and said 'it's quite sweet' and she gives another sour face..
my dad took the next slice. he said something about it being sweet. then he bite half of it. and he gave a freaking sour face. hmm..
my parents are so cute. xD
on tues: victoria asked mdm suzannah. 'are you les?'
mdm suzannah: 'whaat?'
we laugh.
mdm suzannah: 'victoria!, why did you even ask that?'
victoria: 'because you always look at me and smile!'
mdm suzannah: 'i could send you out of class for this, victoria!.'
victoria: 'but she asked me to ask you!'. (points at me)
me: 'why u sabo me!' (looks at mdm suzannah innocently)
mdm suzannah: 'looks like i'll have to change your places!'
sad ending. we get separated.
Quote: Music was invented to confirm human loneliness.
always a twemasekian `9:49:00 pm
